JANJI..!

ta yah nk berjanji kalau rase ta nak tepati..!
hmm... mnhancurkan kpercayaan org mmg reti..!
nk ckp ape lagy...!

pUtIh TaNdA kEmAaFaN - kEiKhLaSaN - KeJuJuRaN.!

pergadohan tercetus selepas kebahgian melanda....
tapi mgapa kah sume ini harus terjadi da mngukir kenangan pahit di dlm haty...
aq ta kuat untuk menerima sgala kenyataan yang myakitkan itu...
aq menelan nye..sehingga tiada daya lagy untuk myimpan lalu ku luahan kan dgan pelbagai cara....
sehinggakan aq terfikir akan masa hadapan yang harus dtempuh berbanding masa lampau yang hitam...tanpa myusutkan kepala otak ku dan demi cinta ku pada nye...
aq memilih untuk mengakhiri perbalahan dengan kuntuman bunga ros putih....



ternyata benar ape yang d'ungkap untuk kedua kali nya.....
aq cume mngharapkn kejujuran dan keikhlasan...
bukan wang ringgit mahupun paras rupa.....
harap ini yang terakhir kali nya kita berbalah....
aq amat myintai mu...dan menyayangi mu.....
wahai MUHAMMAD NUR FADHLI.......

2-11-2010~~~~~~

Selamat Hary Jadi yg ke 20

maaf terlambat upload.. sbb baru skunk ade time nk add...huee....

my bufday... mcm tahun lepas...

jatuh pada hary sy exam final...

hueee... walaupun agak kesedihan d haty...

tapi alhamdulillah wat laa jgak exam tuh..

pd mlm nk masok 2-11-1990...

saya lepaking wif my hubby muhammad nur fadhli.... <3

so...tgah lepak lepak n mencari application for his iphone...

ta sedar da kul 12... huee... tersedar pon sebab my abg angkat kowl...

then bile sy bkak fb..haa... berderet kao wish...

hahhaa...tnpa segan silu aq pon mg'weply laa sume wish wish tersebut..

sehingge kn.....hubby sy yg berade d sblah pon wish kt facebook...!

padahal dok sbelah je niyh ouh....

hahaha... alasan nye... da sume org wish kt fb.. nk jgak..~ hueee....

syg sy yg chumeyl dan gedix...! hahhahaa

lpas abish exam...

sy kuwa bersama rakan rakan uma...

ta de wat bende pon laa....

then saya pulang ke rumah...

dan mnunggu kedatangan encik fadhli...

huee... yang kelakar nye....

sblom nk dtg tuh bkan men lagy dye punye secret dr aq..

sampai sampai wat muke ta bersalah lambat dye pastuh malu malu...

hahahaa.. aq ngat kn ape.. upe nye nk bg bear bear blue n wallet belang bel

ang upe nye....

huee... thx syg....! hahahaha..... klakar ouh bile b malu malu... huee...

then...kami g melepak jee.... taoo kt ne..? t.s...hahahaha....

sbnarnye da lame ta g t.s ngn dye...huee...

hahaha...kami jln jln pai ke b.b...g b.b pon sebab nk g kdai iphone dye...

kite owg berjln smpai dua dua da skt kaki....

so, kami duduk d suatu tmpat da.... ahhhhh...! lega nye kaki ku...

hahahhaa.... kami mngambil peluang duduk dgn begitu lame nye....

then abg aq kowl wish ... huuee..

lepak lepak lepak...aq terasa cm nk jln..

so aq ajak dye g naek atas...g kdai tuh..nk tgk baju....

pada mule nye dye ta nak.. tapi last last...

hahahaa.... dye yg ajak... wekk...!

so kami pon teruskn berjln g kedai ke kedai...

setibanya kami d suatu kdai yg agak baru...sume dlm tuh harga 10 hinggit...

hahahaa...aq cdg mmg mcm nk beli 1 coz bju yg aq tgh pkai tuh mxm laa baju mak mak..

xsuko den..hahahaa...so, pilih pinye pilih baju aq... dye ilang..... upe upe nye... dye pon nk jgak mgetest baju...so... afta try punye belek depan cermin...akhir nye kami beli...

then ape lagy.. trus laa tkar..hahahaa....

pastuh kami trus bertolak ke gombak...sbb membe dye atao aka Qat berade d sane....

so..otw dari k.l ke gombak.....~~~ lalalaa..... tup tup.. aq tertdo atas moto....

hahahahaa....jao sgguh perjlnan kami...hee....

last last kene mawa ngn b.. :'( (pai aty mawa by ouh)....

hahaha...da smpai.........aq lpak lpak jup....pastuh men men game..lastly kami makan....

lpas mkn... aq ta tao kami tggu ape... yg b da smpai tertito tido da...

tgh tgh syok aq men game... tbe tbe lampu kdai tutup...oke laa... aq wat ta taoo je...

tbe tbe..alahaaiiii.... 'hepy bufday to u' nyanyian dr mulut qat ke udara....

hahahaa... tersentap jup jantung aq.... hahahaa.... thx qat coz belikan kek tok birthday aq yg ke 20 niyh...huee...

so.. sye mraikan nye sblom kul 12 mlm.... hahahaaa... thx syg..! thx qat..! n thx warga kedai.... hueee.... :')

.....oUrLoVeJoUrNeY......

THEMOMENTTHATCANTGETOUTOFMYMIND

We were start DATING each other since high school...
there's no much memories to laugh on....
our HEART are not strongly tight each other....
We doesn't care at every inch of what the hell we are saying or do everyday..
because we were nothing....

But actually..we don't even REALIZE on how much precious our relationship..
start with nothng until had everything..
everyday is our DAY.... n no one can get into OUR WORLD..
not even our parents at all...
how SELFISH nye...

That all DAMN much memories of us,
hav been deleted...im totally lost.... down at the moment..
that was a worst time i have to face on everyday..
stand by MYSELF,
walk in the road ALONE,
laugh with NOTHING n EMPTY!

BUT one day....the day that i've been waited, COME...!
u said the word that i cant totally FORGET.
me either dear...
im thankful to GOD coz make my wish became true...
i cant imagine this things will happen..
i wish we can go trough this PATH again dear...
we can BUILD again TOGETHER JUZ like BEFORE...
this came to 10% of one year.

i was RISING UP your percent to 50%
this is because i was caught u are NOT LYING to me..!
that was REALLY a GOOD starting dear..
i wish u can STAY up like this darl...!
besides, this is for our FUTURE ...

u here WIF me....
always stand by my SIDE....
always WALK wif me in this empty road..
laugh TOGETHER wif me....
n more important u ACCEPTING all of me..
u kno how much i APPERCIATE that..
this moment makes me wanna giv u UP to 60%.
:)

u hav been asking me what u hav to do to ADD UP yr percent...
this was probably my answer....
if u face the MR. Right u got 20%..
n if u talk wit MRS. Left u will got another 20%..
im SORRY cuz make things late...
past when i was HAPPY, they were HAPPY..
middle when i was in PAIN..they get STUCK..!
n future if im the one who got LUCK, i want them to be the FIRST ONE to celebrate it..





i hope u will UNDERSTAND n do an ACTION...
im not gonna tell what u hav to do anymore...
this blog i wrote juz to giv u a CLUE..
i hope this wont juz be a WASTE.!
u still doesnt fully touch my heart..
but dunt u worry....cuz that HEART are been LOCKED by yr name.!
only that my word to u dear...~

storymory.....

DeAr AlLaH,
Show me the right path of choosing him...

[allah will always show me the right path]

DeAr My FaMiLy..
give me the strength to face it...

[my parents n my bro will always bubbling and giv a strong word]

DeAR mY aLL fReWn,
plz giv a full support to all my decision that i made in my life......

[but, my frewn..they always want me to be heppy forever..but..hopefully u guys understand y am i doing this kind of decision and life..plzz juz pray fer my happiness and dunt hate me..]

peace 4 eva...

im leaving this hurt peacefully~

thx fer the 'love' that not longer stuck in my heart....

huu... watch out yr step in this fake life...

remember..... the good boy is only fer the good gurl...

insyallah.. amin~

akhirnye...

dpt memiliki jasad...tp bkn laa hati dan perasaan nye...

sila laa lepaskn aq kalo hanye maenan yg ko tawarkan...

tolong laa jawab......

kenape mcm ade jurang antara kita...??

kenape mcm da berjaohan je hati kita..??

kenape mcm terasa kosong....

kenapa mcm ade yang hilang.........

kenape mesti mcm niyh jd nye....?

adakah betul semua keputusan ini ya allah...?

adakah aq yang memaksa keputusan ini terjadi...

adakah aq myebab utama .?

adakah ini sume hanya la palsu ?

dan hanya untuk menyenangkan hati kuh.?

tolong laa jawab........

aq tak sggup dlyn kerana terpakse........

ya allah..........

kuat kan laa hati hamba mu ini.....

bermacam dugaan da kau berikan pada ku ya allah....

aq cuma hamba mu yang lemah ya allah....

bantu laa aq....kuat kan la hati kuh ya allah.....

malu nye aq pada mak abah...

kenape wat aq cam ni lagi...... :'(

hati yang tersimpan..~

aq cume mgharapkan kebahgian..

aq teringin nk kongsi kebahagian dgn sume org....

mcm org laen laen jgak...

tp knape..tiba saat aq...

ade je halangan...ade je...

nape org laen bole...

nape tibe saat aq sume xbole...

:'(

terkilan d hati sume aq dapat sorok kn je laa... :(

baru hari aq sehat sket...aq leyh xtitow spnjang ptg.. huhuee. :)

baru hari niyh aq dpt habiskn bubur mak masak... :')

thx mak...sowieeyyy sblom niyh adek xpat nk abiskn... :(

baru ary niyh aq terasa mcm nk mkn byk byk..

huhuueee :)

tekak yg bengkak pon da surut...

tp xfully sembuh agy....still saket saket... :(

ujian tuhan...bulan bulan pose kn... :(

besar ujian yg dye bg aq tempuhi... :')

niyh ubat yg aq kne telan hari hari ouh... heee...

huuee... :)

bersyukur... :)

Waktu : 10.30 p.m kowt.

Date : 5 jun 2010.

Lokasi : Classical Boutique Hotel.

Hubby hubby...time niyh kite dua dua xjanji nk pkai bju ape kn..by trn trn je tgk b da de kt bwh dgn bju purple nye..huhuee..by pon pkai bju purple jgak time tuh.. Jkebetulan je kan..b ngat x time niyh kite cadang nk kuwa...nk kuwa cadang nye jao jao..tapi kite g sunway je..jaoo laa gak tuh en..walaupun mlm tuh by kene masok keje kul 11 L tp kite ttp kuwa jgak kn....hahahaa...kite g hantar fon papa kt nokia centre...b ngat lagy x..? hhuhuhuee..pastu kite g tgk SATIO..harga dye time tuh mahal lagy ouh.. L Tp skunk da murah J hahaha... (kurang seratus je pon..)...hahaa..tp bulan niyh insyallah by akan kuatkn semangat beli jgak...heheehe J

By windu sume kenangan kite....xde sape yg lyk gantikn tempat b........ L

p/s : dan skunk by bersyukur sgt sgt dengan ape yang ALLAH berikan sayunk..by harap sume nye niyh berkekalan selepas ape ujian yang dye berikan yunk... :)

this is my lovely stuff...

but stating from today...

they will be a memory of mine....

:(

no longer exist :(

kehadapan icha ku tersayang~ :(

icha sayunk...

mane kamoo menghilang niyh....

plzz...tunjuk kn dirimu....

jgn wat sy sediyhh d sini syunk....

:(

today~

perasaan tuh mmg rapuh kn...

sampai org leyh wat men men jee kn.....

hee...hmmm...

xtaoo laa...haihh..

ambik jln senang jee laa kag...!

'waiting'.....1.15 a.m~

weeehhhh....!!!!!!

tlg ahhh ckp ko bahgia tnpa aq weeehhhh...!

xde laa aq menaruh harapan...!

bodo seyh..!

beban.....~

penat seharian niyh aq terfikir...

aq xtao ape aq fikir niyh btol ke x...

sbb.....bile skali aq da wat kputusan...

aq wisau sgt sgt...

tp.................xde sape.....

aq kosong....sgt sgt kosong....

thx sgt sgt kt kowank sape yg support life aq after incident tuh..

tp rite now...aq xtao nape..

aq xtao aq perlukn ape...

maafkn aq kalo aq ambik....

sowiey all my dear......

:(

my heart..~

they say past is past..

we need to move on to see the future..

but how can we move on when our past is the only thing we ever wanted in the future...~

p/s : kpd org tuh....fikir laa n tlg laa wat kputusan...scepat nye... :(

da lame hati niyh mnggu.... :(

13.08.2010 ... bersamaan 3 ramadhan... :)

semua nye berlaku mcm tuh je....

ape yg d'cdg kn nk wat sume ta menjadi...

membe aq kne balek pg pg tuh jgak...

sedangkn kami da jnji nk g kolej ptg tuh...

kelas aq pg tuh 1 aq ponteng, 1 lagy naseb bek lecturer m.c..

huhuee...selamat... :)

pastuh..bkn men lagy aq nk m'kompom kn sape nk ambik ptg niyh...

along ke abah..?

yg along, men men..xtao laa ambik kul bpe..

yg abah nk je ambik, tp dye kate lpas solat jumaat laa...

aq xkesah je...tp along tuh haa...nk jgak ambik...!

oke...aq tggu je laa...smpai 1 saat , dye msj..

'kte da otw, tp xtao smpai kul bpe...'

jam baru kul 5.. huhuee... :)

aq pon relax je la...last last...da de dpan uma 5.30 tuh...

hahahah...pdn muke...da laa xsiap lagy...

aq pon g laa siapkn dri......

kami bergerak dari uma aq...da nk menuju ke highway...

tp aq tersalah bg direction laa....da abg aq pon tersalah masok jln laen....

jam bru kul 6...

tgah kami tersangkut dlm traffic jam...

abg kuh 'mlz laa ikot jln niyh, kite xbuke kt uma laa, xsempat '

hurmm..aq pon ikot je laa...aq xkesah pon :D

dlm tgh ikot dye jln...............6.30 pm abg aq bentikn kete dye sbelah kiri skali jln :(

aq tnye nape long..? dye jwb 'huuu...myk da abish...'

dlm hati aq berkate...ujian ain.... :')

xpee laa......dye kowl membe membe dye...msg msg kt highway jgak...

leyh tlg pon lambat lagy.. :)

tnpa pk pjng.....dlm 6.40, dlm ujan ujan tuh....

abg aq pesan.... 'kunci pintu, if ade sape sape je laa yg ketok ko jgn bukak..xkire laa sape pon auwww....! '

ye along..... :( dlm ketakotan aq duk kt lam kete sblah highway dari 6.40 ptg smpai 8.15 mlm.......

:'( tuhan jee tao betape takot nyee aq mase tuh....

tp tuhan jgak je laa yg tao mcm mane kesabaran abg aq berjln kaki kt highway yg pnjg tuh tok cari stesen myk..dgn ujan nyee.... :(

jaoo kowt dye jln kaki.....smpai dekat istana budaya auw...

bygkn laa.... :(

aq berbuke beberape biji kurma saje...:) alaass pewot.... :)

mak aq ckp.....xpe laa adeq, dugaan bulan puase niyh... :)

aq dgn rela hati nye... ye mak..adeq tao :)

8.15 tuh, abg aq smpai dgn membe dye bwk myk..... :)

alhamdulillah..~

akhirnye.....dlm perjalanan pulang... kami berdua mkn roti...aq air kopi BOSS dn dye.. NESCAFE...huhueee...

:)

sampai d'rumah....mak aq buat kn teh pnas, hidang kn kt kami bdua... :)

hhehehe.. nikmat jee rse :)

ape ape pon..... ALHAMDULILLAH dgn dugaan smlm ya ALLAH.... :)

:)

hari niyh da genap 2 bulan...~

dan secara rasmi nya...

rambot aq pon kembali normal sperti sblom 2 bulan niyh...

harapan~

agar aq pon kembali ceria dan sehat seperti dlu...

tp..klau mampu laa nk mkn byk byk...

huhuee..:)

thx too all..~